once again i'm back after a long vacation from blogging ...
i really wanna emphasize, Emptiness is created by God, nothing can fill it, we can about working, studying, watching videos, doing our daily stuffs, but we can never fill tat emptiness, that void in our hearts. jeremiah 29:11 - For God knows his thoughts towards us, thoughts to prosper and not to harm us. i used to reject God, i used to think that christians are psychos, who psycho ppl to join their religion, but Jesus didn't come to establish a religion, He came to restore the relationship when adam and eve fell into sin. Jesus came to show us the way for He is the way the truth and the life. I don't care what my friends say about me, i really wanna help, i've been saying jesus can help because He helped me and i speak from experience. it's really up to them to make their decisions, i have no say, i can only offer a solution, they take it or not, their choice man !!!

what my passion ??? suddenly this question came out of my mind reading some of my friends blog. her blog is so filled with things of God, and here i am in a roller coaster ride in my walk. people see me walking well, but no i'm not. i've been too comfortable as a sheep as a cell member that church has become a place where it's about fun. i hate it when i do not break down in God's presence like how it use to be. i hate it when i think like a non-believer sometimes.
my studies is also heading nowhere! thats the worst that can ever happen to me, a student who shocked his whole family literally when people thought i'm lousy. i'm certainly not as stupid as they think, because they choose to see me that way, i can't do anything to that but to go on with what i'm doing. i've realised, the moment i advanced to poly, the passion for my studies had sailed away, almost becoming another titanic. SERIOUSLY what has happen to me!
i find myself exercising more frequently with my hands and mouth, using chopsticks, forks and spoons rather than with my weights or going out for jog or swimming. where has that motivation to exercise gone to??? where's my passion?!!! will the dream to climb mount everest be a dream forever? i hope not SERIOUSLY HOPE NOT ...

hey morning folks !!! here typing from downtown area the golden sims drive !!! =)
lately i haven't been reaching out to my friends, i guess the reason is not just because i talk nonsense all the time, it probably is the reason, but the real reason is that i just don't have patience.
when i tell them about how God cares and love them, the end result could be ... there's no result!
But do i reach out to them out of love, or do i not reach out because i don't see any results
if i love them i should focus on loving them instead of seeing failure !!!

how i wish my friends will listen to me when i share my faith with them. probably 99% of all my friends mock don't believe it at all! sadly the friends tat really know me and are close to me are my non-christian friends, they've known me before i became a christian. those brothers that i cycle with in my sec school days, sell ice cream with, work together in the same company, cycled in to sentosa without paying any $$ at all done crazy things together, cycling the whole of singapore.
i always pray that they will hear me out, but they make fun of it. sometimes they are good, they don't disturb my believes, most of the time they would. they don't know how much it affects me, i just don't show people the weak side of me. people probably see me as a strong person, but i am hurt very easily, i just don't show!
i prayed for opportunities, i prayed for holy spirit to guide me, only to realise tat nothing had happen. when i go night cycling with them, i told them my testimony, they know it, they know i don't use vulgarity and watch whatever dirty stuffs i used to watch in the past. but why is it that they still do not believe.
God enlighten me amen !

FINALLY, i'm finally sick and tired of playing those games i played YAY ... LOL i'm so addicted to it that i'm tired of it!
time to do wat i'm supposed to do

was wondering to myself, why am i praying for my friends to see them not being saved in the end. pray that they will come for service or cell, in the end they don't. why am i praying for an unanswered prayer !
well don't care la i already ask them and have told them about god, they don't come, end up in wherever, it's their problem.
have been asking God to send salvation to my grandaunt. she's very old already and at the peak of her life. the problem is i can't evangelise to her when my uncle is also present. but the holy spirit spoke to me just now. u can try evangelising, well u've gotta do it while u can, it's just once and if she goes without Jesus in her life, she going down man. if my uncle knows it, the most he could do is chase me out of his house. if i don't try, i'll never succeed.
God be my strength just as You are the source of strength for david when he is weary. Amen

WHAT THE HECK! woke up 7am, went toilet to do my business, next go to bed again and i felt hungry. tried to ignore the hunger but it persist on so much that i couldn't sleep AT ALL ! didn't have much choice, woke up cycled to macdonalds!!!! wat a waste of time, well at least now can try doing qt early.